UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

So i tested this morning and got a big fat NEGATIVE! Ugh why isnt TTC so much easier. Last time we just did the deed and finally concieved. Well i guess i should just do like last time and not care about it so much but i so badly wanna be pregnant. Damn you negative test!

TTC is hard!

So yeah. With Jaylyn all we did was say okay and I was magically pregnant the first time. I dont think its gonna be that easy this time. Granted I still have 5 days untill I cant test, Im really thinking Im not pregnant this time around. I just dont "feel" like I am. Hmm. So yeah.

Well on a good note, Jaylyn went to the beach for the first time this weekend. She loooooved it. She didnt want to leave. She found shells, played in the sane (I had to cover her in the sand after she saw another boy doing it), and she loved jumping over the waves. She is so excited that well be going back for more days in the sun soon.

How in the hell!

How do these little teeth have 7 (yes i said 7) cavities??? I just don't get it!

So Jaylyn went in for her first ever dentist appointment. Now mind you, I brush her teeth everyday! The dental hygienist first said that I don't brush her teeth well enough. Well hell Ive been brushing teeth for 23 years I guess its just now I learn. (bitch!) So she showed me the "correct" way to do it. So then she proceeds to tell me that her gums are not healthy. By this time I'm getting really agitated.

Finally the dentist come over to check out Jaylyns teeth. He starts counting and saying some weird words then looks at me and says "she drinks a lot of juice huh" Of course i say "um yeah she drinks juice but not all the time". He says well she has 7 cavities and will need to have oral surgery done since we don't do multiple fillings at once. YOU HAVE GOT TO BE SHITTING ME!

So my three year old would need to be put to sleep at a hospital that's 1.5hrs away to get fillings on teeth that look fine to me! Shit!

Needless to say I'm going to take her to get a second opinion. I just cant see having major surgery when

1. I don't think she has as many cavities as they say she does

2. They could easily do fillings in the office

Well today marked another "I'm a horrible mother" day for me in my book. :(

Yeah havent posted in a while!

I was thinking about starting a blog. Lo and behold i totally forgot I has this one! How i could forget ill never know.

So now Jaylyn is three years old. Cant believe I had her that long ago. Not only that, Justin and I have decided to TTC! Yay for more sex! Whoo hoo!

So i guess ill just update this small for now and ill update again i guess whenever i remember :)

UGHHHH!

So, Justin (my fiance) has some stomach problems. He has ulcers. He ended up in the hospital Monday. Wouldn't you know, my employer was not happy that I left to be with him in the hospital. The words out of my supervisors mouth were "Hes a grown man. Cant he go to the hospital himself?" ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!?

Now, as you can see this is a reason why i hate my job. They are the most non family-oriented company that i have ever worked for. So today I'm back at work and I didn't even get a "hey hows he doing?" All i got was a paper that i had to sign saying i had an unplanned absence. What a load of CRAP!

I'm on the search for my new job...

The first post!

Okay, so I'm new at this blog thing but I've decided to give it a try. Cant be that hard right?


Well for me it just may be. I'm a working mom who cant stand her job. I don't think i have enough time with my family. On my weekends I try and spend as much as time with Jaylyn as possible while doing some much needed housework. On Sundays, I hate to even think about Monday.

Well I guess its time to meet Jaylyn. Let me introduce you to her. She is the only reason why I keep working.

Jaylyn

1. Wild


2. Crazy


3. Funny


4. Loving


5. drama queen


6. SHES TWO!!!!! (dun dun dunnnnn)

Who ever thought that a 2 year old could be a drama queen. Well she is. She has to be the center of attention at all times and when shes not you will definitely know it. This child will scream and yell until she has your full attention.

Okay so now that you've meet the love of my life back to the point. I hope i can keep up with this blog as I need to be able to vent sometimes and I'm sure my mother is tired of hearing me complain.