UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

So i tested this morning and got a big fat NEGATIVE! Ugh why isnt TTC so much easier. Last time we just did the deed and finally concieved. Well i guess i should just do like last time and not care about it so much but i so badly wanna be pregnant. Damn you negative test!

TTC is hard!

So yeah. With Jaylyn all we did was say okay and I was magically pregnant the first time. I dont think its gonna be that easy this time. Granted I still have 5 days untill I cant test, Im really thinking Im not pregnant this time around. I just dont "feel" like I am. Hmm. So yeah.

Well on a good note, Jaylyn went to the beach for the first time this weekend. She loooooved it. She didnt want to leave. She found shells, played in the sane (I had to cover her in the sand after she saw another boy doing it), and she loved jumping over the waves. She is so excited that well be going back for more days in the sun soon.

How in the hell!

How do these little teeth have 7 (yes i said 7) cavities??? I just don't get it!

So Jaylyn went in for her first ever dentist appointment. Now mind you, I brush her teeth everyday! The dental hygienist first said that I don't brush her teeth well enough. Well hell Ive been brushing teeth for 23 years I guess its just now I learn. (bitch!) So she showed me the "correct" way to do it. So then she proceeds to tell me that her gums are not healthy. By this time I'm getting really agitated.

Finally the dentist come over to check out Jaylyns teeth. He starts counting and saying some weird words then looks at me and says "she drinks a lot of juice huh" Of course i say "um yeah she drinks juice but not all the time". He says well she has 7 cavities and will need to have oral surgery done since we don't do multiple fillings at once. YOU HAVE GOT TO BE SHITTING ME!

So my three year old would need to be put to sleep at a hospital that's 1.5hrs away to get fillings on teeth that look fine to me! Shit!

Needless to say I'm going to take her to get a second opinion. I just cant see having major surgery when

1. I don't think she has as many cavities as they say she does

2. They could easily do fillings in the office

Well today marked another "I'm a horrible mother" day for me in my book. :(

Yeah havent posted in a while!

I was thinking about starting a blog. Lo and behold i totally forgot I has this one! How i could forget ill never know.

So now Jaylyn is three years old. Cant believe I had her that long ago. Not only that, Justin and I have decided to TTC! Yay for more sex! Whoo hoo!

So i guess ill just update this small for now and ill update again i guess whenever i remember :)